I should have had two!
I should have two for mothers day!
I should have left with two!
There should have, there should be, there should have!
and one of my favorites I should have told them sooner...
I think one of the saddest thing aside from the actual loss was how everyone was told. That, they didn't get to experience that tear inducing, heart exploding, knees shaking excitement.
I was so excited for weeks about telling them. I played it out in my head a million times yet it never crossed my mind that it wouldn't happen.
It still kills me that we didn't get to share those beautiful, exciting raw emotions. Literally half of the pregnancy was kept a secret from the world we all had to bare.
This is something that I have not found peace in yet.
I wish with all my heart I shared that time with the people I love.
I wish I screamed it from the roof tops because it was.that.damn.wonderful.
How can someone carry two babies in their stomach and yet no one even know?
I feel like one of the best moments of my life is a secret and it sucks.
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