I don't even know how many weeks you are little guy! Things are going so fast!
Somehow you are sleeping until around 7:30 which is crazy and if we play hard you are taking a morning nap-its been great.
Reflux is back! At the end of this week you were hiccup burping and spitting up! I felt so bad! You would spit up way after eating and on Thursday night you were in pain! You only felt content being held up. I took you outside at night to change things up but you didn't relax until we were standing in front of the tv watching Mickey Mouse club house and then you had huge smiles and were out
Sunday your gigi and pop pop came over and helped us prepare the house for the move ad you were a super star. Seriously you just played and smiled and it helped us out so much. The day before we looked at houses and you were a doll then too.
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
20 Weeks
So this week you rolled over and pushed up on your own. I was talking to Gigi and looked down and there you were on your tummy pushing up with a big smile. Since that day you haven't stopped moving! In fact, you push your self up on your feet! The wiggles arent stopping there we are going to put your craddle up and take out the pack and play because you move so much i8n your sleep and keep getting stuck between the bars!
You also are trying to sit up! You dont want to be held like a baby to be fed anymore which makes bottle feeding a little harder. You are also trying to sit up on your swing so we are going to have to retire it this week!
At the begging of the week you were not sleeping well nor eating. After not eating well for 3 days I took you to the doctor. They pricked your finger and it was the first time I saw your blood! It made me so sad! Everything came back fine but you did have a small virus. Everything went back to normal a day later.
I think your eyes are turning brown or green but im not 100% sure yet.
I took you to a viewing party in the ATL for the inauguration. I want you to experience so many different things and help make you well rounded. I think going to something like this does just that!
I am still very insecure and feel like if you make a peep everyone is staring. But you did great and I need to get over that. You had a great time. You loved all of the energy and just took it in with those big blue eyes! I am so glad I had my little buddy there with me. I cant wait to take you to these things when you are older!
You also are trying to sit up! You dont want to be held like a baby to be fed anymore which makes bottle feeding a little harder. You are also trying to sit up on your swing so we are going to have to retire it this week!
I took you to a viewing party in the ATL for the inauguration. I want you to experience so many different things and help make you well rounded. I think going to something like this does just that!
Monday, January 16, 2017
15 Weeks
Colic! Really thats all there is to say! I called for back up this week because I was feeling so overwhelmed! Hearing non stop crying really takes a lot out of a momma.
So Monday grandpa came and helped out. He came with me to the dr as we thought your ear hurt but turns out you are just teething!
So Monday grandpa came and helped out. He came with me to the dr as we thought your ear hurt but turns out you are just teething!
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
12 weeks old
You got your thumb! You are officially a thumb sucker! You even tried daddy's!
You are cooing like crazy! I woke up one morning to you just playing and talking. It was the sweetest thing ever!
You are waking up about two times a night and have taken to the breast! As soon as I hear you stir I snatch you up and feed you and put you right down. Since there is no stimulation so you fall right asleep. It has been awesome!
You are cooing like crazy! I woke up one morning to you just playing and talking. It was the sweetest thing ever!
You are waking up about two times a night and have taken to the breast! As soon as I hear you stir I snatch you up and feed you and put you right down. Since there is no stimulation so you fall right asleep. It has been awesome!
Survivors Dinner
I went to a Twin Survivors dinner the other night. Soon as I saw the table;e of ladies I got teary eyed.
I still cant believe this happened to me. I cant believe how alone I have been on this journey. I just wanted to wrap my arms around all the women at the table as soon as I saw them.
They were warm and welcoming and there were more mothers then I expected. After meeting them it seems like I am the only one with vanishing twin although another girl did miscarry her twin as well.
As most of the moms gave birth and lost their twin I felt unworthy when I heard their painful stories. Mine was early, mine was a miscarriage. But as I teared up I was reassured it was about my heart, what I felt, and my family.
I cried some more.
All of the women spoke about the twin they had lost so openly, and without judgment. It was like the baby was just another person on this earth. It felt so good to be able to cry and talk freely without worrying about what everyone else thinks. Because trust me, I see the look you give me, I know you are thinking...
I'm are tired of hearing this- its depressing
Shes crazy because it was just a miscarriage and it happens all the time
and the best- She needs to get over it
and trust me i know its sad, I want to get over and know very well I miscarried because I think about it everyday.
Really besides me spewing out my pain randomly no one has asked how I feel.
No one has talked to me about that sweet little baby and how it changed our lives.
Actually, writing it and realizing that kind of hurts my heart. But its true.
Why is wrong to love a baby that miscarried?
Why cant we talk about its death?
Why cant we celebrate and recognize its heartbeat?
Why cant we mourn with the mother?
By not recognizing the child you are invalidating the excitement, love the mother felt when she saw those heartbeats and the pain the day she only saw only one. Trust me I will never forget either of those days, ever.
And I know, I will never be the same. But I am trying and I am glad that almost a year later I am starting to feel some peace.
I still cant believe this happened to me. I cant believe how alone I have been on this journey. I just wanted to wrap my arms around all the women at the table as soon as I saw them.
They were warm and welcoming and there were more mothers then I expected. After meeting them it seems like I am the only one with vanishing twin although another girl did miscarry her twin as well.
As most of the moms gave birth and lost their twin I felt unworthy when I heard their painful stories. Mine was early, mine was a miscarriage. But as I teared up I was reassured it was about my heart, what I felt, and my family.
I cried some more.
I'm are tired of hearing this- its depressing
Shes crazy because it was just a miscarriage and it happens all the time
and the best- She needs to get over it
and trust me i know its sad, I want to get over and know very well I miscarried because I think about it everyday.
Really besides me spewing out my pain randomly no one has asked how I feel.
No one has talked to me about that sweet little baby and how it changed our lives.
Actually, writing it and realizing that kind of hurts my heart. But its true.
Why is wrong to love a baby that miscarried?
Why cant we talk about its death?
Why cant we celebrate and recognize its heartbeat?
Why cant we mourn with the mother?
By not recognizing the child you are invalidating the excitement, love the mother felt when she saw those heartbeats and the pain the day she only saw only one. Trust me I will never forget either of those days, ever.
And I know, I will never be the same. But I am trying and I am glad that almost a year later I am starting to feel some peace.
Thursday, December 1, 2016
10 Weeks Old
You had your first thanksgiving! We went to Grandmama and Grandpapa's first. You weren't 100% yourself but you were awake and still happy. Everybody loved on you.
Then we went to Gigi and Poppops. You met Aunt Paige's parents too. You were asleep pretty much the entire time we were at my parents I figured you were knocked out from all the excitement from earlier that day. Pop Pop watched you the next day so we could shop on blackfriday. You barfed an entire bottle while with him! You went back to sleep and he held you the rest of the time.
You def. like your PopPop you smile at him as soon as he nears. When you do start to whine he tells you its a no whine zone and you smile. Its so cute a few weeks ago you were in his man cave and you wouldn't stop fussing until he sat you in the recliner like the rest of us and then you were one happy camper.
Mommy feels so good again! I want to start moving again so we went on a 4 mile walk the other day. You were up for the first mile then passed out. I am going to try and go on longer walks so hopefully when your neck is stronger we can go on long runs.
You sure do smile a lot. When you are with me and see me you give me the biggest smile! Its takes up your whole face and you just light up. It melts my heart so much. I hope this happiness stays forever! Its amazing even though you cant talk I know you love me so much.
You are a real joy to be around and everyone loves you little boy!
Then we went to Gigi and Poppops. You met Aunt Paige's parents too. You were asleep pretty much the entire time we were at my parents I figured you were knocked out from all the excitement from earlier that day. Pop Pop watched you the next day so we could shop on blackfriday. You barfed an entire bottle while with him! You went back to sleep and he held you the rest of the time.
You def. like your PopPop you smile at him as soon as he nears. When you do start to whine he tells you its a no whine zone and you smile. Its so cute a few weeks ago you were in his man cave and you wouldn't stop fussing until he sat you in the recliner like the rest of us and then you were one happy camper.
Mommy feels so good again! I want to start moving again so we went on a 4 mile walk the other day. You were up for the first mile then passed out. I am going to try and go on longer walks so hopefully when your neck is stronger we can go on long runs.
You sure do smile a lot. When you are with me and see me you give me the biggest smile! Its takes up your whole face and you just light up. It melts my heart so much. I hope this happiness stays forever! Its amazing even though you cant talk I know you love me so much.
You are a real joy to be around and everyone loves you little boy!
11 Weeks Old
Sorry buddy! I got behind on your weekly updates! You have been a joy to be around. I can tell your reflux is getting under control and over all you are a happy baby.
You are a wild thing and colicky around 2-5 everyday and its rough. But I am hoping to figure something out to get us both through that time!
I swear you are teething because of all of the drool, rash and the fact that you keep putting your hands in your mouth but the ENT said you weren't. Speaking of which you saw the ENT this week and you did well. I felt so bad for you! They did an endoscopy on you, used a microscope in your ears and nose and cleared them out. I had to help hold you down it broke my heart but I guess its just part of the job. The ENT said you only had milk swelling. AMEN!
You started nursing a few weeks ago. Not full meals more like snacks but it was something. Then this week you are actually latching on and taking meals. We have nursed several times a day which is so awesome!
We also are starting to get on a schedule. At 5 I bathe you and start the whine down process. You are passing out around 7 and I started going to bed around then as well. Before I would stay up and go to bed around 10 but that just wasn't working for me. Now by going to bed around 7 I can get around 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep before you wake. You get up around 12-1 and 3-4 then 6. But the past week or so you are ready to rock at 4. Again, another thing that needs to be worked on. The past two days I nursed you at 4 and only moved you from the cradle to my bed so you weren't really woken up and ended up sleeping until around 8. That extra sleep helped both of us!
oh, I almost forgot you had real tears today (thursday)! Break my heart why dont ya?! I guess nap time is a very sad thing :)
You weigh 12 pounds 8 ounces and are 24 1/2 inches long!
You are a wild thing and colicky around 2-5 everyday and its rough. But I am hoping to figure something out to get us both through that time!
I swear you are teething because of all of the drool, rash and the fact that you keep putting your hands in your mouth but the ENT said you weren't. Speaking of which you saw the ENT this week and you did well. I felt so bad for you! They did an endoscopy on you, used a microscope in your ears and nose and cleared them out. I had to help hold you down it broke my heart but I guess its just part of the job. The ENT said you only had milk swelling. AMEN!
You started nursing a few weeks ago. Not full meals more like snacks but it was something. Then this week you are actually latching on and taking meals. We have nursed several times a day which is so awesome!
We also are starting to get on a schedule. At 5 I bathe you and start the whine down process. You are passing out around 7 and I started going to bed around then as well. Before I would stay up and go to bed around 10 but that just wasn't working for me. Now by going to bed around 7 I can get around 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep before you wake. You get up around 12-1 and 3-4 then 6. But the past week or so you are ready to rock at 4. Again, another thing that needs to be worked on. The past two days I nursed you at 4 and only moved you from the cradle to my bed so you weren't really woken up and ended up sleeping until around 8. That extra sleep helped both of us!
oh, I almost forgot you had real tears today (thursday)! Break my heart why dont ya?! I guess nap time is a very sad thing :)
You weigh 12 pounds 8 ounces and are 24 1/2 inches long!
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