Feeding yourself doodles and puffs started loving on things soft holding it to u and sucking your thumb
(Found this in drafts! I guess a post I started but never followed up on- either way worthy of posting : for reference )
Monday, June 19, 2017
The week of your birth
I had the urge to nest bad. There was so much to be done. Your dad finally took off Wednesday to help "finish" your room.
We went to the dr and thought I was leaking but nope, still 3 cm. I was a bit upset that were wasn't any movement.
I was able to see you twice this week once on Wednesday and then on Thursday! I really thought you would be a 9/1 baby then in the middle of the night Friday (the 2nd) I had bad cramps. Around an hour later I realized there was a start and end to them! I laid in bed and started tracking them- I heard your dad on the computer but I stayed quiet in case it was nothing- 45 minutes in he walked in and I realized I was def contracting so we called the dr and headed in.
It was perfect timing we left at four and got there around five and best traffic! Tg! I was brought into to l and d fast. I was afraid they were going to send me home I was still only 3 cm but I was having consistent contractions and 80% effaced. I think the process of getting checked in by the nurses took the longest which wasn't even long. I remember having the urge to poop and vomit along with the pain and all the wires attached made it hard to focus on breathing through. Before I knew it the anesthesiologist was there with the epidural I really thought they were going to make me labor through it before giving it to me. The epidural was scary and I was afraid I would tense up during a contraction but I didn't. I did throw up though...
The epidural gave relief fast and I felt like myself if not better. I wiggled my toes as much as I could because I was afraid of losing feeling. Dr Moore came into break my water. It didn't hurt if anything I think it felt good? Maybe less pressure. At that time we realized you had your first bowel movement so they had to drain me. Honestly I think the epidural helped the most because you didn't realize you were all open and not lady like. If I could feel what was going on down there I think I would naturally be tensed up and uncomfortable.
They started the pitocin and told us to take a nap but before that could happen I felt pressure and the need to push so we called them in there and believe it or not it was time. I had a strange wow this is happening moment as they were getting me in position. Everything just slowed down and there was peace and silence in that one second.
The pushing wasn't bad. I did realize I was pushing my feet into their arms and I realized I was doing the opposite of what I needed. I also thought of all the things I read where women pushed then went weak at the end so the head went back in so at the end of each push I pushed harder! They felt your head fast and within 45 minutes you were here. I didn't feel any pain when you came out I actually thought you came out earlier. I'm not sure what I saw! For some reason that final push is something I can't stop thinking about one minute you're in me the next right here.
They plopped you on my chest for a second then whisked you away to be checked. I don't remember much about me getting fixed but I do remember you. After your bath they were going to bring you to me but I said let your daddy hold you first. He was by you the entire time. Then they brought you to me...
We went to the dr and thought I was leaking but nope, still 3 cm. I was a bit upset that were wasn't any movement.
I was able to see you twice this week once on Wednesday and then on Thursday! I really thought you would be a 9/1 baby then in the middle of the night Friday (the 2nd) I had bad cramps. Around an hour later I realized there was a start and end to them! I laid in bed and started tracking them- I heard your dad on the computer but I stayed quiet in case it was nothing- 45 minutes in he walked in and I realized I was def contracting so we called the dr and headed in.
It was perfect timing we left at four and got there around five and best traffic! Tg! I was brought into to l and d fast. I was afraid they were going to send me home I was still only 3 cm but I was having consistent contractions and 80% effaced. I think the process of getting checked in by the nurses took the longest which wasn't even long. I remember having the urge to poop and vomit along with the pain and all the wires attached made it hard to focus on breathing through. Before I knew it the anesthesiologist was there with the epidural I really thought they were going to make me labor through it before giving it to me. The epidural was scary and I was afraid I would tense up during a contraction but I didn't. I did throw up though...
The epidural gave relief fast and I felt like myself if not better. I wiggled my toes as much as I could because I was afraid of losing feeling. Dr Moore came into break my water. It didn't hurt if anything I think it felt good? Maybe less pressure. At that time we realized you had your first bowel movement so they had to drain me. Honestly I think the epidural helped the most because you didn't realize you were all open and not lady like. If I could feel what was going on down there I think I would naturally be tensed up and uncomfortable.
They started the pitocin and told us to take a nap but before that could happen I felt pressure and the need to push so we called them in there and believe it or not it was time. I had a strange wow this is happening moment as they were getting me in position. Everything just slowed down and there was peace and silence in that one second.
The pushing wasn't bad. I did realize I was pushing my feet into their arms and I realized I was doing the opposite of what I needed. I also thought of all the things I read where women pushed then went weak at the end so the head went back in so at the end of each push I pushed harder! They felt your head fast and within 45 minutes you were here. I didn't feel any pain when you came out I actually thought you came out earlier. I'm not sure what I saw! For some reason that final push is something I can't stop thinking about one minute you're in me the next right here.
They plopped you on my chest for a second then whisked you away to be checked. I don't remember much about me getting fixed but I do remember you. After your bath they were going to bring you to me but I said let your daddy hold you first. He was by you the entire time. Then they brought you to me...
feb 17-24
feb 17-24
you are on all fours and bouncing front to back! you are getting ready to crawl! you look like you are doing an irish jig in your bouncer!
you are on all fours and bouncing front to back! you are getting ready to crawl! you look like you are doing an irish jig in your bouncer!
6/19
So today is the 19th of June. We have done a lot this month and I figured I would go ahead and get it all down!
You had your fist hair cut! It was past your eyes. I couldn't believe how long it got. You were fabulous and just sat there looking around while she cut. The stylist next to us said she actually forgot a baby was getting a cut. You were great and looked so adorable sitting there. Your hair cute has got me all goggley eyed because it is that cute on you. You look like little boy and not a baby anymore!
You went on your first vacation. You did well in the car. You did whine some but I would too if I had your energy and was stuck inside.
On our way we stopped to eat and you were so interested in what others were doing. You were completely turned around to watch the action. After the drive we went to the beach to let you see it for the first time. You were def more interested in the sand but it was still fun!
The first day we were there it rained! So that morning I took you to the aviation museum. It was packed because it was rainy so we didn't get to play at the kiddie hawk playground which is what I wanted :) But we did get to check out some bad ass planes. Any plane they had out to sit in I put you in. Even though you dont know whats going on I want you to experience as much as possible! Im hoping these great experiences will just add to what I hope is a fabulous life little one.
You enjoyed sitting in the planes! You were intrigued and wanted to pull and touch everything! You saw Nixon's helicopter, the one were he waves good bye. I figured I would let you know that in case you become a history buff like me. You saw a lot and didn't show any sign of being bored the entire time we were there. Seriously, you were great. Even though I didn't read any of the plaques it was so much fun to walk around with you and watch you discover new things.
After the museum we went to a pub. Oh my gosh they had the best meatloaf. You devoured it. Again, you sat at the table looking at everyone, eating your meatloaf and not one peep! Afterwards you fell asleep in the car (it took all of 2 minutes). I was going to let you take a nap but at this point it was sunny out and I said screw it we are going to the beach. We were there only 30 minutes or so and you enjoyed every minute of it.
Your dad took a day off so we could all go to the beach together. You were OK with looking at the water but you were scared if we put you near it and waves came. I cant wait to go back with all of your cousins. One thing is for sure, I want to go to calm beaches. Even though the water was by no means rough there was no way I was taking you out there. Hopefully, next beach it will be crystal clear and lake like.
Today we went to the kid social hour at the library. There weren't that many kids but there were enough to keep your attention. You loved the balls they had out and chased them around, and then just watched other kids. I love watching you interact and observe other kids! Tomorrow I plan on taking you to baby story time!
Eating, eating is better. You have been interested in the packs where you squeeze out the pure. You are still a cheerio fan. Oh, you just learned how to use your snack cup although you sure twirl your hand in it a lot before puling out anything.
Anytime you see me eating you come right over with a big grin and want to try what I have! This too has been fun although at dinner time I just want to eat!
You are standing up randomly and alone! You can walk if you just someones hand. Its adorable!
Im so tired right now but Ill right more later! I was just looking back at old posts at it goes from 38 weeks pregnant to 2 weeks old! Haha oh well. I think I may try to jot some things down so I dont forget them about your birth!
You had your fist hair cut! It was past your eyes. I couldn't believe how long it got. You were fabulous and just sat there looking around while she cut. The stylist next to us said she actually forgot a baby was getting a cut. You were great and looked so adorable sitting there. Your hair cute has got me all goggley eyed because it is that cute on you. You look like little boy and not a baby anymore!
You went on your first vacation. You did well in the car. You did whine some but I would too if I had your energy and was stuck inside.
On our way we stopped to eat and you were so interested in what others were doing. You were completely turned around to watch the action. After the drive we went to the beach to let you see it for the first time. You were def more interested in the sand but it was still fun!
The first day we were there it rained! So that morning I took you to the aviation museum. It was packed because it was rainy so we didn't get to play at the kiddie hawk playground which is what I wanted :) But we did get to check out some bad ass planes. Any plane they had out to sit in I put you in. Even though you dont know whats going on I want you to experience as much as possible! Im hoping these great experiences will just add to what I hope is a fabulous life little one.
You enjoyed sitting in the planes! You were intrigued and wanted to pull and touch everything! You saw Nixon's helicopter, the one were he waves good bye. I figured I would let you know that in case you become a history buff like me. You saw a lot and didn't show any sign of being bored the entire time we were there. Seriously, you were great. Even though I didn't read any of the plaques it was so much fun to walk around with you and watch you discover new things.
After the museum we went to a pub. Oh my gosh they had the best meatloaf. You devoured it. Again, you sat at the table looking at everyone, eating your meatloaf and not one peep! Afterwards you fell asleep in the car (it took all of 2 minutes). I was going to let you take a nap but at this point it was sunny out and I said screw it we are going to the beach. We were there only 30 minutes or so and you enjoyed every minute of it.
Your dad took a day off so we could all go to the beach together. You were OK with looking at the water but you were scared if we put you near it and waves came. I cant wait to go back with all of your cousins. One thing is for sure, I want to go to calm beaches. Even though the water was by no means rough there was no way I was taking you out there. Hopefully, next beach it will be crystal clear and lake like.
Today we went to the kid social hour at the library. There weren't that many kids but there were enough to keep your attention. You loved the balls they had out and chased them around, and then just watched other kids. I love watching you interact and observe other kids! Tomorrow I plan on taking you to baby story time!
Eating, eating is better. You have been interested in the packs where you squeeze out the pure. You are still a cheerio fan. Oh, you just learned how to use your snack cup although you sure twirl your hand in it a lot before puling out anything.
Anytime you see me eating you come right over with a big grin and want to try what I have! This too has been fun although at dinner time I just want to eat!
You are standing up randomly and alone! You can walk if you just someones hand. Its adorable!
Im so tired right now but Ill right more later! I was just looking back at old posts at it goes from 38 weeks pregnant to 2 weeks old! Haha oh well. I think I may try to jot some things down so I dont forget them about your birth!
Friday, June 9, 2017
9 Months
Time slow down! Hey little boy you just turned 9 months. This month has been the best yet.
Your little personality comes out more and more each day.
At 9 months you have 6 teeth and just broke your 7th. You just started using your push cart and love walking with it. Its so funny to see because you are so petite and there you are walking! You like other people! I have taken you to events and you go right up to other kids wanting them to play.
I took you to the GiGi's this week and she had a dinner party. We had you seated at the table with us in your high chair and it was as though you were one of us! You laughed when we laughed, you were full of emotion. It was amazing. Seriously it was as though you knew exactly what was going on!
I also took you to baby story time! You did great and went right up to other kids. They of course were shy but you showed no fear and I loved it! You definitely liked story time and I cant wait to take you again.
We have also gone swimming! You love it. You actually let me lay you on your back and let me kick your legs for you. We have gone several times now and we stayed for an hour the other day. After swimming I bundled you up and fed you snacks and you just sat there eating and looking around.
You saw the ENT last week and things look good but he still wants us to continue prilosec. We will visit him again when you turn a year!
Eating. Eating has been very frustrating. You were doing wonderful eating then this past week it has been a major struggle! I feel like you I did when you had reflux and wouldn't/couldn't eat. Its very stressful and I am hoping its only because of that new tooth. Otherwise you are taking your bottle fine and have taken up to 12oz at time.
I am not sure what your favorite food is right now. You have had waffles, pancakes, breakfast sausage, sweet potato, baked potato, green beans, chicken, and meatloaf so far. I think its still a little to early for green beans and maybe waffles,
You will be going to Florida this week! Your dad is going on a business trip and we will be joining him. Im excited you will be joining me for an adventure! I hope we have fun! When we get back me and your dad will be taking you to the firehouse next week for story time. We are excited!
Your little personality comes out more and more each day.
At 9 months you have 6 teeth and just broke your 7th. You just started using your push cart and love walking with it. Its so funny to see because you are so petite and there you are walking! You like other people! I have taken you to events and you go right up to other kids wanting them to play.
I took you to the GiGi's this week and she had a dinner party. We had you seated at the table with us in your high chair and it was as though you were one of us! You laughed when we laughed, you were full of emotion. It was amazing. Seriously it was as though you knew exactly what was going on!
I also took you to baby story time! You did great and went right up to other kids. They of course were shy but you showed no fear and I loved it! You definitely liked story time and I cant wait to take you again.
We have also gone swimming! You love it. You actually let me lay you on your back and let me kick your legs for you. We have gone several times now and we stayed for an hour the other day. After swimming I bundled you up and fed you snacks and you just sat there eating and looking around.
You saw the ENT last week and things look good but he still wants us to continue prilosec. We will visit him again when you turn a year!
Eating. Eating has been very frustrating. You were doing wonderful eating then this past week it has been a major struggle! I feel like you I did when you had reflux and wouldn't/couldn't eat. Its very stressful and I am hoping its only because of that new tooth. Otherwise you are taking your bottle fine and have taken up to 12oz at time.
I am not sure what your favorite food is right now. You have had waffles, pancakes, breakfast sausage, sweet potato, baked potato, green beans, chicken, and meatloaf so far. I think its still a little to early for green beans and maybe waffles,
You will be going to Florida this week! Your dad is going on a business trip and we will be joining him. Im excited you will be joining me for an adventure! I hope we have fun! When we get back me and your dad will be taking you to the firehouse next week for story time. We are excited!
Thursday, May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017
Charlie you are amazing! You bring light into this world! You are such a happy baby.
You have SIX teeth and the cutest little gap between the top two. Don't worry we will get you braces when you are older but right know, that toothy grin, swoon.
You are going to be walking soon. You love standing up. You grab onto everything and pull up. You really have taken to your Dad this month and smile big when he comes home. You have said Da Da a few times for some reason the very most in the morning...maybe you are wondering where he is?
You also like Eddie! You will tap your hand just like we do to get Eddie to come and its so cute. You arent saying Eddie, yet but you are saying EH HH. You hear the E and you can tell you are pronouncing two syllables and you are always looking at Ed and taping your hand when you do it. Genius :)
This past Monday we put you in your own room. You kept waking up at 2 and after a small feeding would go to sleep with us. Well I love it and all but you wanted to do it every night. And that just cant happen. Per Dr. Shore you needed to go into your own room. Man, it sucked. I was in bed and I literally missed you! I mean you were one room over and I missed you!
You slept great and are still going strong in your own bed. Im wondering if we were doing something to wake you up at 2. Snoring, movement, who knows.
You love water and your nuk cup your GiGi bought you. You love your little icepops too. You are eating 3 meals a day plus bottles. You are eating everything now but your favorites at first were veggies. You are just now getting into fruits.
I tried giving you puffs yesterday and today and you had no interest eating them but had a great time playing with them.
Your hair is LONG! Your side burns are halfway passed your ear and if your bangs arent brushed over they go into your eyes. Your hair is so pretty and I love when you let me brush it with my hand.
You started getting some separation anxiety which is common at this age. It is the saddest thing though! Oh and stranger danger is real! You were in the kitchen playing and me and the counter guys were coming in, I followed behind them and you flipped. We were also at the store and when your dad stepped aside for a second to pay for something you flipped when you couldn't see him. I was actually an ilse over when I heard you and came running over. It was kind of funny. A stylish 30 something guy was trying to consul you- like your daddy is right there little guy its ok.
I took you to the park. When we went to cauble i let you crawl around. You were very interested in the bark on the ground lol. But you did run around and when you saw another baby you would crawl up to check him out. We also went to Swift Cantrell. Its an awesome park. There were too many kids to let you go wild but you still had a good time.
We just booked the hotel and you will be coming to Pensacola with us. Your dad has a business trip so you and I will go check things out! It will be strange having a little buddy with me! Im used to exploring on my own!
I noticed the past two days you got annoyed with eddie. I think he tried to lick your icepop or something and i saw you shove your arm away from him with annoyance. It was funny. Speaking of Eddie you DART to his bowls. You LOVE splashing his water and you like putting both hands into his food bowl and swirling the kibble around. Poor ed must be starving because we have to keep everything up away from you. HAHA
You love your jumper still. Although you arent jumping as much. Each day we go sit on the porch and I put you in it. You have started to just chill in it and lounge. Its cute. I need to get you a rocking chair I was told you wont sit in it but i dont know you have some chill moments.
You really are the sweetest little thing. I have so much fun with you and I am so proud of you. You are the greatest treasure. Everyday is something new and we are already thinking of your FIRST birthday! How is that even possible?
You have SIX teeth and the cutest little gap between the top two. Don't worry we will get you braces when you are older but right know, that toothy grin, swoon.
You are going to be walking soon. You love standing up. You grab onto everything and pull up. You really have taken to your Dad this month and smile big when he comes home. You have said Da Da a few times for some reason the very most in the morning...maybe you are wondering where he is?
You also like Eddie! You will tap your hand just like we do to get Eddie to come and its so cute. You arent saying Eddie, yet but you are saying EH HH. You hear the E and you can tell you are pronouncing two syllables and you are always looking at Ed and taping your hand when you do it. Genius :)
This past Monday we put you in your own room. You kept waking up at 2 and after a small feeding would go to sleep with us. Well I love it and all but you wanted to do it every night. And that just cant happen. Per Dr. Shore you needed to go into your own room. Man, it sucked. I was in bed and I literally missed you! I mean you were one room over and I missed you!
You slept great and are still going strong in your own bed. Im wondering if we were doing something to wake you up at 2. Snoring, movement, who knows.
You love water and your nuk cup your GiGi bought you. You love your little icepops too. You are eating 3 meals a day plus bottles. You are eating everything now but your favorites at first were veggies. You are just now getting into fruits.
I tried giving you puffs yesterday and today and you had no interest eating them but had a great time playing with them.
Your hair is LONG! Your side burns are halfway passed your ear and if your bangs arent brushed over they go into your eyes. Your hair is so pretty and I love when you let me brush it with my hand.
You started getting some separation anxiety which is common at this age. It is the saddest thing though! Oh and stranger danger is real! You were in the kitchen playing and me and the counter guys were coming in, I followed behind them and you flipped. We were also at the store and when your dad stepped aside for a second to pay for something you flipped when you couldn't see him. I was actually an ilse over when I heard you and came running over. It was kind of funny. A stylish 30 something guy was trying to consul you- like your daddy is right there little guy its ok.
I took you to the park. When we went to cauble i let you crawl around. You were very interested in the bark on the ground lol. But you did run around and when you saw another baby you would crawl up to check him out. We also went to Swift Cantrell. Its an awesome park. There were too many kids to let you go wild but you still had a good time.
We just booked the hotel and you will be coming to Pensacola with us. Your dad has a business trip so you and I will go check things out! It will be strange having a little buddy with me! Im used to exploring on my own!
I noticed the past two days you got annoyed with eddie. I think he tried to lick your icepop or something and i saw you shove your arm away from him with annoyance. It was funny. Speaking of Eddie you DART to his bowls. You LOVE splashing his water and you like putting both hands into his food bowl and swirling the kibble around. Poor ed must be starving because we have to keep everything up away from you. HAHA
You love your jumper still. Although you arent jumping as much. Each day we go sit on the porch and I put you in it. You have started to just chill in it and lounge. Its cute. I need to get you a rocking chair I was told you wont sit in it but i dont know you have some chill moments.
You really are the sweetest little thing. I have so much fun with you and I am so proud of you. You are the greatest treasure. Everyday is something new and we are already thinking of your FIRST birthday! How is that even possible?
Emotional-5/11
I hear myself saying it should have been two!
I should have had two!
I should have two for mothers day!
I should have left with two!
There should have, there should be, there should have!
and one of my favorites I should have told them sooner...
I think one of the saddest thing aside from the actual loss was how everyone was told. That, they didn't get to experience that tear inducing, heart exploding, knees shaking excitement.
I was so excited for weeks about telling them. I played it out in my head a million times yet it never crossed my mind that it wouldn't happen.
It still kills me that we didn't get to share those beautiful, exciting raw emotions. Literally half of the pregnancy was kept a secret from the world we all had to bare.
This is something that I have not found peace in yet.
I wish with all my heart I shared that time with the people I love.
I wish I screamed it from the roof tops because it was.that.damn.wonderful.
How can someone carry two babies in their stomach and yet no one even know?
I feel like one of the best moments of my life is a secret and it sucks.
I should have had two!
I should have two for mothers day!
I should have left with two!
There should have, there should be, there should have!
and one of my favorites I should have told them sooner...
I think one of the saddest thing aside from the actual loss was how everyone was told. That, they didn't get to experience that tear inducing, heart exploding, knees shaking excitement.
I was so excited for weeks about telling them. I played it out in my head a million times yet it never crossed my mind that it wouldn't happen.
It still kills me that we didn't get to share those beautiful, exciting raw emotions. Literally half of the pregnancy was kept a secret from the world we all had to bare.
This is something that I have not found peace in yet.
I wish with all my heart I shared that time with the people I love.
I wish I screamed it from the roof tops because it was.that.damn.wonderful.
How can someone carry two babies in their stomach and yet no one even know?
I feel like one of the best moments of my life is a secret and it sucks.
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